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It’s 3:00 in the morning.  I wish I could say I’m wide awake.  But the truth is, I’m not.  I’m struggling.  My eyes are tired from staring at this computer screen for hours.  I’m dreaming of being snuggled beneath my covers.  But instead, here I am. . .

It’s one of those nights where I woke up thinking about responsibilities - money and bills and the future of all of those things.  Has it ever happened to you?  I never seem to know that I have so much to worry about until the darkness and quietness of the night sets in.  And for some reason, then my mind starts swimming. It’s almost like I lay there and unconsciously create things to be concerned with - things that never cross my mind in the middle of a swirling day.

Inevitably I crawl out of bed frustrated and find myself here - at the computer - researching or calculating or doing something completely mindless to waste away the hours until daylight again. 

But tonight, I just have to share with you that in my draggy and sleepy, overstimulated mind and heart, I found encouragement and love from the Father.  Tonight he settled my heart as he has done so many times before by giving me a bigger picture.  Tonight I saw online pictures of my dear friends, Nikki and Andy and Keith and Bobby and David, serving in Vietnam in the middle of a huge flood.. .and I read stories about their adventure and how God is all around.  Tonight I watched a video created for the 6 month anniversary of a new church in Boulder that is reaching college students like crazy and another gathering called, The Collective, in downtown Boulder tackling injustice in the city streets - and again there was confirmation, God is all around. I watched a video (no matter who you voted for, you’ve gotta see this!) of little children being inspired and encouraged to be all that they can dream to be, and once again, it was confirmation to my heart that God is all around.  And just now, I finished a Facebook conversation with a close friend who once lived in Ethiopia and now in Qatar.  Her life is now so very different from mine.  But she is faithfully serving God.  And even when her life gets really hard, He is all around.

And as I sit here writing in this cold little basement, I am confident that even here and now, God is all around me. 

I have no reason to fear.  I have no reason to worry.  Whether it is dark and quiet or loud and crazy, I’m not alone.  And God is in control doing bigger things than I can even wrap my mind around.  So my decision tonight is just to continue to move with him and to trust him and to notice him more. 

God is all around.  He is so much bigger than our circumstances and he has so much more to lead us through.  As church planting wives we have a lot on our plates. At times we put on a beautiful smile and yet our shoulders are heavy and our minds can’t find rest.  Like me, I wonder if you ever find yourself functioning with tunnel vision - only focusing on the struggles that stare you so boldly in the face?  It’s 4 am now.  I’m officially done with my pity party of worry and concern. 

So would you join me?  Let’s remember to take a step back and gain a greater perspective when times get tough.  God is so much bigger than our worries.  This journey is just too grand to miss.  He is all around, longing to show us the bigger picture.

What helps you to gain “God” perspective again when times get tough?  

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posted by Amy Colón
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